Issues

Have I ever mentioned I have control issues? Well, it's become more and more apparent while doing physical therapy. Gail, my therapist, wants me to do a move called the pendulum where you're just supposed basically let your arm hang and go in circles. I CAN'T DO IT! I catch myself going really smoothing and my brain kicks in and there it goes. It's become quite a joke between us. So now, I have to hold a weight to do it. With the weight, I'm in control and can do it - I know there's something wrong there. However, this is why I don't have an issue keeping the ball in place when I do circles on the wall.

And, of course, there's ever present issue of patience. I want to feel better last week. Forget the fact that I waited for two months to go to the doctor, now that I'm torturing myself I want results quick - instead I feel like I'm beating myself up. It takes time. Eventually I'll be able to get dressed without wincing. I'll be able to drop boxes at work. All of that fun stuff. Right now, I have the attractive taped shoulder. Maybe I should be grateful it snowed again and I can keep wearing sweaters so the tape doesn't show under my short-sleeves (I'd rather have the good weather back).

I have made some progress. Today I moved from just doing time-out (almost all my exercises are against the wall and require me to face the wall) to getting to dance around in a circle with the band. Progress - someday, I'll be able to once again lift both arms and exercise all out and all of that other fun stuff.